Do you suppose your language may be part of your problem?
You used the word “s..t” many times in your letter (not very ladylike!)
By your own admission you are impatient, saucy, don’t like doing chores and care about being in love and yet you want to get married! Girl, you are full of contradictions!
My advice is for you to see a counselor either in your church (I assume you have a church you attend) but if not seek out a professional counselor who might be able to help you.
If you need further help with that please send you number (it will not be published) and I will get you some help with a youth counselor.